Random Musings

I haven't felt that busy since.....now.
It's been wave by wave of onslaught of redundant shit bazookaed at me relentlessly,aimed at my face,with great accuracy. Now I binchaochao.
But I'm glad that I dealt with it fine.
I also played with fire. Tested the "Can do but don't get caught" mantra.
Got burnt. Weekends.

A recent situation that happened made me realise something.
A friend,who used to be in our bunk,got posted out to an 8 to 5 job.

Jealousy and envy engulfs us in repeated packets of grunts and tantrums.

But at the end of the day,I found that the ones remaining forged a stronger bond,began to enjoy the shit we went through together and felt that things are not so bad anymore.
The friend,who got posted out,has hardly any friends due to his easy job and we can't even talk to him much on similar issues now.

Friendships are important to us.
In times of adversity are when friendships are developed into a stronger bond.
Hi-Byes are not friendships. They are worthless.

It's those people you can laugh with,have fun with,talk openly with and lend a listening ear to that are the genuine friendships.
It doesn't matter where we are,what we are in.
Nothing can faze anyone when there's a team.

I tend to go with the flow.
I tried getting posted out too. I'm so glad I stayed.
Ahh,the miracle of Choice. A different experience altogether.

I do cherish friendships somehow or rather.
But I'm often lazy to catch up.
I guess I'm forever that way.

Deep inside,I'm somehow saddeded by the fact that as we grow older,friendships tend to get loose and far.
We all try to seek more exciting adventures,greener pastures,higher ground. Even me.
It's a seeyainafewmonths kinda thing now.
And there will always be some animosity and awkwardness which is really detestable.

Whatever happen to the good ol' times where everyday is playday?

Where everything can be telepathic and honest and easy?

Responsibility and the desire to make a living has shifted our focus away from the love shared by many different individuals which binds each other together.
And the conversations won't ever be as deep and concerning anymore.
It will be just to accomodate,compromise and to continue,to avoid the seemingly awkward silence.

You just feel lonely even in the company of your friends sometimes.

I recently caught up with my best friend from secondary school.
He went to OCS.
I felt really glad for him. More glad that we could talk that much even through SMS like good ol' times.

But it feels like I've somehow lost a part of my life that I couldn't get back.
A regret that I couldn't remember much of any beautiful memories due to selfish pursuits and pleasure.
Sometimes I question who I was really.
Did I lose more than I gain along the way?

I don't want to feel like a watchmen in a dimly lit watchtower.
So cold,wrapped in a thin tarp,with only the moon as my company. I talk to its majestic frame like an imaginary friend.
I eat my hard and dry bread and cry at the patheticness of it all.
No way.

Speaking of more positive things,it's high time for a new running shoe.
Hehhehhhhh.
I think it will be Supernova Control 10. Read some pretty nice reviews on it.
Got discount voucher.
I'm just another typical seize your chance and save more Singaporean.

But I really still do dig Asics.
It has quality written all over it.
But it has been with me through countless 5-10k runs and finally,that 21km half-marathon.
I guess I should retire it sometime soon.

It has become my friend. Our favourite activity is me putting my foot in its mouth then stepping on it 1000times.
I shall feed it some food and wait for it to shit.

Goodnight.