Bloated

I always have this tendency to eat a lot after running.
It's not hunger.
It's a fear I would have no energy tomorrow.

Flu overcame me,but I was too bored.

I ran along Katong today in a super short jogging shorts and a super long T-shirt.
I think I look like Tata Young.
Nobody looked at me.
She's not popular.

The sights and sounds always had a calming effect on me.
Always overestimated myself.
It's the scenery that made me slow down and revel in its beauty.

I was infuriated over something lately.
I don't like working for people who don't deserve it.
I don't mind slogging my ass out for people whom I respect.
It's so important to be a credible leader.
A person who motivates and sets a good example,
A person who rewards dutifully to the people working under him,
A person who raises the morale of the people by putting in as much effort,
A person who is cultured and doesn't get angry over the most minor things.
A person who is honest and has integrity and pride.
My observations led to this. Cause that lazy bastard is totally not these.

Being a leader is very easy.
It's so easy to a point anybody can be one.
A leader among leaders is the difficult part.
The only great leader I knew in my life is my secondary school canoeing coach.
You know he's a great leader because when you look back,you remember the compassion and the spirit and motivation that burst through his veins to the people who wants to work hard for him.
He need not be a charismatic person,but the values and principles must be rock solid to a point you abandon your own to adopt his temporarily to make things work.

Now,it's not the case.
I won't work for a lazy bastard.
I will be MORE lazy.
I don't give a fuck.
I'm working for myself. I'm selfish.
Cause lazy bastards don't deserve it.
They deserve to be random. They deserve to be barbaric.
Playing computer games while we die in the sun,clap clap,the best leader.
Getting angry when we felt we've done enough and don't wanna do no more,clap clap,great leader.

I sometimes became a person I'm not and judge people.
I really hate it.
But it's so fucking difficult to not judge.
Some people are so fucking lowly and treat people as slaves and whores they can utilise.
I'm not a whore thank you. Don't fuck me.

And they can lie through their teeth.
An example.
Suppose a game whereby every participant have to eat two pieces of cakes.
Me and my five friends are in the game too. So is Lazy Bastard.
But eating two cakes is too much for some people.
I ate two cakes though and I caught Lazy Bastard eating one cake.
My five friends ate one cake,they can't eat anymore.
But it's violating the rules if you eat one cake.
Lazy Bastard scolded my 5 friends for eating one cake,
When he fucking ate one cake and I caught him.
He's fucking lying through his teeth.
How can things work like that.
He can still be smug and threaten my 5 friends over eating one cake.
The cheek to do that makes me disgusted.

I can't believe this world.
It makes me feel sad.
So I should run more and eat more.